As the adoption date draws closer, I find myself with some really important issues to face… some of them minor, like I wonder where I can get a nice court outfit for Austin, some of them a bit more major..

The main issue I am struggling with is who should attend the hearing. One one hand I feel that Austin, Christopher AND Matthew should be there, but on the other hand, I don’t want them causing a disruption on Austin’s special day. I also think they may ask Austin & a parent to step out of the court room when the judge calls BM to ask her about severing her rights, but I really want to be there for that. I almost wish I had an unnemployed childless friend, or stay at home mom with a babysitter so I could have someone come in with me to help me mind the children. However, with the adoption being in a closed courtroom I don’t know if they would allow non-family… but the closed courtroom also means I cannot just walk out and hand them off to someone without first asking for the door to be unlocked.

Maybe I am just stressing over little things because most of the big things are done, but I am really freaking out about the sibbling issue.